Songwriting

So writing songs, easy as it may seem, is actually kinda hard. The lyrics to my new song came to me over the course of 2 days, and they're really good. But now I've got to write/compose the actual music part. My friend Celine is letting me borrow her keyboard and I'm going to the music trailer at my school tomorrow to use the Mac's and the keyboards there to hopefully bang out some of the parts. I have to wonder who writes the music for The Maine's songs, cause they claim that they write all their own music, but I'm pretty sure that none of them have an extensive enough background in music to write music. I'm really excited for this! So today, I'm sitting in English, and we're watching The Crucible, so the lights are turned off and this guy who has like a major crush on me, goes oh, I like this no lights thing. And his dumbass friend goes, oh you should put your arm around her. Of course, I heard him so I shifted my seat closer to my friend and away from the guy. So then his friend goes hey Jaymee, you and Marcus should go out! And I looked at him and went, um I don't think that my Greg (my friend) would like that very much. Now just to give some background, this kid has asked me out before and I told him that I was seeing someone, which was and still is, a lie. But I really don't like this kid so it was the first thing that came to my mind. So they go, who's Greg? And I was like, the guy I'm seeing. They both turned away and didn't talk to me for the rest of the class. "Home for the weekend, Looking for a good time; Of all the numbers you end up calling mine. Ready or not , I think I’ll give this a shot. I should know better than to Give her what she wants. I picked her up and she was three-forths gone. She passed out before we even got to talk. All I want to know is: Where were you when I needed you most? Why did you leave me alone? We gave up before we gave it a chance, And I don’t understand." Where Were You by Every Avenue

Here's to you all struggling, and successful singer/songwriters! I understand the stress.

what happened to us?

What happened to us?
I remember the summer past
When we would talk until the sun came up
And never run out of anything to say to each other
You could make me smile and blush whenever you hugged me
I remember how in love we were
We would fly high together, hand in hand
We couldn’t keep our hands off of each other
A simple smile on your beautiful face could make my whole day perfect
You picked me up from my darkest times
And brought a smile to my face
Now it feels as though you ripped out my heart
And left me here to bleed
I don’t know what happened to your kindness and compassion
But you’re unrecognizable to me now
Your smile seems cold and unfriendly to me now
Your touch is like ice to my skin
There is no more to talk about for us
Just let go of me now and let me learn to fly on my own

Yeah, I just wrote that on my own. I liked it so I figured why not post it? Maybe I'll turn it into a song...

Bright Yellow Hoodies

So last night, was almost THE MOST amazing night of my life! I got to meet Garrett from The Maine and give him his bag and a hug, and he liked that I was dressed up as him. =] The concert was absolutley amazing, even though I left part of the way through Mayday Parade's set because I wanted to hit the merch tables before everything was sold out. So I wound up buying a huge The Maine hoodie, that may be the most comfortable thing I've ever worn. And then I met these really cool girls and we chilled for awhile. I got to hang out pretty much backstage for a bit, and I got to talk to Derek Sanders from Mayday Parade and I love him so much! He was so nice and amazing. I look up to him so much because he is an amazing performer, and he has such a strong voice! I'm seriously star struck. On top of that, this other band that I'm like in love with, Phone Calls From Home, was outside the concert last night selling cd's and whatnot, and I went to one of their concerts about 2 weeks ago with my friend Ariel and it was super small so we got to spend like 4 hours talking to them. So last night I saw them online, and the super hot Dave Place, the lead singer recognized me and gave me a huge hug and stopped to talk to me for like 20 mins. I love him so much, he's crazy nice and awesome. I'm really excited because I thought that after yesterday, I wouldn't have anything to look foward to, but my friends and I decided to go see Every Avenue in December so we're now starting to talk about that. I love concerts! "Well from the waist down, You don't turn aroundYour body takes turns, Like the words, like the words, That are falling from my mouth, My jaw dropped down My mind starts spinning, Starts spinning around all over again I'd let you go, go do whatever, ever I Hold you close, but your heart says no This feels like high school, but nothings new, Every other boy tries talking to you I guess graduating changes nothing at all Well from the neck up, there's not much to say I know I could do better, Could do better anyway But I'm waking up, Here next to you I'll be thinking to myself what the hell did I do." High School by The Friday Night Boys

Here's to you the boys of The Maine, Every Avenue, Mayday Parade, and All Time Low, rock on, love life, and love what you're doing because we all sure as hell do!

Broken hearts and broken promises

Okay, so my awesome night, did not go as awesome as I had hoped. I pretty much spent the entire night on the verge of tears because the guy I liked, one of my best friends, asked my other best friend to go to his homecoming dance with him. So I'm trying really hard to be a good friend and be supportive of her and happy for her, but as soon as I got home from dropping my friends off, I went straight up to my room and cried for the first time in almost 3 months. I promised myself over and over again that I wouldn't cry, because I knew that this would happen. And to make matters worse, 2 guys have shown up in my life lately, one of whom I've only known since like the 1st day of school and the second I haven't talked to since like maybe 5th grade? Anyway, so the first one asked me out and I said no because I have no feelings towards him whatsoever, and then today I heard him talking to his friend while we were in US History and I heard him say, "no she already said no once, I'm not going to do it again." I almost started to cry. Then this other guy told me on the bus the other day while I was on my way to a friends house that he had had a crush on me for years. I don't think I've ever been more embarrased. So pretty much, my perfect weekend, was ruined with one sentence and listening to a 30 second phone call... "I've searched this shoreline to see if you still cared, or wear my heart on your sleeve. I've been waiting here, hoping you'd come back home to carry me away to where we used to be. But if you're heart doesn't fall my way, please know I wanted you to stay. It's lonely on my own. So take your, take your time with me, and kill me slowly. Just kill me slowly." Goodbye Was Always You by To Be Juliets Secret

Here's to you Celine and Chris =/ <3

Cheer Up...

So I hate my school like no other. I'm sitting in the hall today at lunch listening to my iPod and some random frosh kid walks up to me and goes, "cheer up emo kid!". I almost slapped him. I really wish that people would stop generalizing other people, just because I have angled bangs that cover part of my face and i wear eyeliner and skinny jeans, does NOT make me emo. In fact, if I said that I was emo, I'd be a poser. And there is nothing that I hate more than posers. I am a straight-edge punk. I have no reason to be emo, my life is fine, I get good grades, and I have a group of really good friends that understand me. Over the summer when I got my bangs done my sisters husband started to make fun of me and was like "oh why so emo?". My dad isn't the most cultured person around so when we were on a roadtrip my dad turns to me and goes, "so what's with this new 'omni' thing?" and I looked at him and go, "what are you talking about? emo?" and he goes "yea that." and I was like nothing. Since then, he's taken to calling me "emu" which pisses me off to no end and he thinks it's the funniest thing in the world. Anyway, I'm really excited because in 2 days I'm going with my 3 besties, Ariel, Celine and Kelsey to see The Compromising of Integrity, Morality, and Principles in Exchange for Money tour in NYC. AKA, we're going to see, All Time Low, Every Avenue, Mayday Parade, and THE MAINE!!! AHHH this will be my second time seeing The Maine live, and I am like bouncing off the walls I'm soo excited. Oh yeah, my French teacher made my life complete today, our class, to review the numbers, had to guess her age. So I raised my hand after awhile and I guessed, and got it right and I got a candy necklace! It pretty much made my day. Oh, that and in chem, I melted a ball of clay in the oven-thingy. It was pretty funny. "Oh this suggestion may be a bit suggestive but I've had it on my mind all night. And you're intensive but you're dying for attention. Girl it takes you just to feel alright. It isn't real if it's just one night, I'm trying real hard, oh just be real. The love on my lips, sweetheart I'm sorry but you're not the first, with lust in my eyes I'll be undressing you with every word." Undressing the Words by The Maine

Oh yea, and I'm going to town tonight to see my friends! This is going to be like THE BEST night of my lifeee! Actually, that's a lie, Sunday night will be. <3

Thinking

So I'm sitting here, listening to We All Roll Along by The Maine, and I'm getting all depressed. I feel ridiculous, but this song really hits home for me. In the last year I've made some really good friends, but it's hard to think that over the next 2 years, we'll all be (haha thats a song by The Maine!) graduating and going our seperate ways. The part where they sing about parking lots and whatnot is the perfect description of our social lives seeing as how our old hangout, The Barn, closed down thanks to lack of staff. So pretty much all we do is hang out in the CVS parking lot in town or in the park, which is connected to the parking lot. I don't know, maybe I'm too sentimental for my own good, but the way that John Ohhh sings "we all roll along" makes him sound sad, like he misses being a teenager and stuff, and I know I will, because I want to go into the Coast Guard when I graduate, which means that all the stupid stuff I do now, I won't be able to do in a few years. It's sad to think that aside from Ariel and Celine, I only met all my best friends in the last year, and for me and Pat, we only have this year before he graduates, and then after that Ariel Celine David Chris and I will graduate and leave Kelsey behind. "Just don't forget this, we won't regret this, we've got one chance to get it right. We're alive and we drive to the center of it, where we know we're all fine and this just can't be it. And in the end we all know we only breathe for so long so tonights the night, we all roll along."

This one is for you, j.A.C.K and Tools <3