Broken hearts and broken promises

Okay, so my awesome night, did not go as awesome as I had hoped. I pretty much spent the entire night on the verge of tears because the guy I liked, one of my best friends, asked my other best friend to go to his homecoming dance with him. So I'm trying really hard to be a good friend and be supportive of her and happy for her, but as soon as I got home from dropping my friends off, I went straight up to my room and cried for the first time in almost 3 months. I promised myself over and over again that I wouldn't cry, because I knew that this would happen. And to make matters worse, 2 guys have shown up in my life lately, one of whom I've only known since like the 1st day of school and the second I haven't talked to since like maybe 5th grade? Anyway, so the first one asked me out and I said no because I have no feelings towards him whatsoever, and then today I heard him talking to his friend while we were in US History and I heard him say, "no she already said no once, I'm not going to do it again." I almost started to cry. Then this other guy told me on the bus the other day while I was on my way to a friends house that he had had a crush on me for years. I don't think I've ever been more embarrased. So pretty much, my perfect weekend, was ruined with one sentence and listening to a 30 second phone call... "I've searched this shoreline to see if you still cared, or wear my heart on your sleeve. I've been waiting here, hoping you'd come back home to carry me away to where we used to be. But if you're heart doesn't fall my way, please know I wanted you to stay. It's lonely on my own. So take your, take your time with me, and kill me slowly. Just kill me slowly." Goodbye Was Always You by To Be Juliets Secret

Here's to you Celine and Chris =/ <3